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when i read about it, my heart was racing like the speed of the aeroplane.
my inherent weakness, my love for the nations other than my own.
omg this is so exciting! lets hope this works out, for the better.
anw thoughts aside. i'm SHAGGED. i din even stay in the entire 3 days of foc so far. been more or less there, not exactly playing the games, but still, shagged. haha. it's just different being a senior la. the fun has long gone, the enthusiasm is no longer there. this year there are loads of freshies. strange thing is that i wasnt supposed to be SA of this og. this wasnt my chao's bring forward og. so the leaders of this group arent the once i camped with earlier. but.. cos bleah. my nice junior og exploding le. so its just different. anw this the last day for me le.
tmr gg iceskating! funnn.. and i cant wait for saturday. i need it!
i need to sleep now.
if you're trying to make me feel bad about my actions, you have failed. it only goes to show the true character within. things don't have to end the way it is going. i am trying to make it better, but i guess you're not. you're just too focused on your own feelings, and neglecting how i feel. but nevermind, it doesn't matter anymore, anyway.
i guess i'll start looking for a new class... since you cant be bothered to try, i won't either.
so, how do you define love? rather, whats the big deal about it? one thing i'm sure of, i won't be searching, neither will i be waiting. it's too much too shit too sigh.
these two days have been continuous fun... i've hardly got the chance to slack at home. well, it is good in the sense that i'm able to be distracted away from the problems that i'm facing, such that i'm far too occupied to even think about it. it's those times at night before i fall asleep, that's the hardest to get by.
how'd you know whether in life you make the correct decisions or wrong decisions? i wish there's a voice telling me what to do, or i wish i can know my future hence i would know the path i should be taking. i guess it's affecting me. i won't deny that. but i guess i'll have to be strong, and learn to be an independent girl from now on.
still, i appeciate all that you've done for me.
yesterday was a day out at east coast park, with angelie and some nus ppl, blading for i guess the first time! (not considering those days where we skate for fun like lil kids) the usual me would choose bikes over blades due to the convenience of bikes, and also due to laziness! blades, well, they can be fun, like down the slope. but skating for 3 hrs continuously, felt like i was running a marathon. lol. from one end to another end of east coast park. wow.. it was such a great effort. i din think i could have made it so far, after months of non strenuous activities. haha. at least i didn't fall down, tho the slopes were pretty scary.. "stand straight keep your shoulders straight and don't move" lol.. thats what the pros say.
and now, i just came back from natday preview. it was oookay.. tho i was more interested in the bag! vernise and i were having fun there. but the guy next to me kept on sneezing. spoilt the show. it was so crowded, but the heart shaped light is really nice =]
i wish i can be distracted forever... maybe it's cause this matters to me... so much, i don't know what to do.
everything that has a beginning, has an end. not all endings are the perfect fairytale happy-ever-afters.
sometimes you think life doesn't treat you well. but look around you, and you'll find that you're pretty blessed. much more fortunate than many out there.
smile, cause there're many more things out there that bring you joy than what could or have gone wrong.
at the end of the day, you grow, you learn, and will never walk the same path you did before.
i am stronger than this
The end of internship marks a beginning of my 3 week long holiday, and now, its just 1.5 weeks left. Life at IRAS was interesting, and i would say, fulfilling to a certain extent. Having to handle different situations was a challenge. Most importantly, made great new friends through the course of internship.
Now that i'm officially rotting at home, i thought i might as well put my time to good use! Leech wanted to go to simlim to look at computers but i'm just lazy to leave the house today. Some thoughts about what i recently saw this morning, while i was browsing online. It took me this long to poke myself into this business. Obviously, it don't matter anymore.
Growing up: Does it mean that a person with a child-like character, who just wants to enjoy the fun of life, the excitment, has not grown up? People have different sides to their personality. One's actions on the surface does not imply that he or she has not grown up. If maturity is based on our actions, I would say you do not have a life.
Attitude: In actual fact, a persons attitude towards people, towards the world, towards his/her actions in any duties will reflect his/her actual character more deeply than just acting like a child. Who will fault a child-like character rather than an a*s*o*e character? In life, yes abilities do matter in determining one's usefulness, yet, just imagine.. would you fault someone who at least tried to fulfil what is required of him? As long as you've tried your best, you know you will have no regrets. Yet, if you are born with the natural abilities, it'd be good to give others a helping hand, sincerely from the bottom of your heart.
Friendship: What does this word seriously mean? People come and go, so often that we don't keep track. Except for that particular few. One thing i do know is, at least treat your 'friends' or friends with sufficient concern and care and do your part as a friend, and do not throw your friend into the devils pit. How would u like if you're the one feeling so helpless on your own, and the only one whom can provide the help just can't be bothered with you?
One honestly can't compare "grown up" in his or her own definitions since everyone has a different viewpoint. And so you think...
In two weeks time i'll be back in hall. It's been fun for the past 2 years, and i hope my last semester in hall will be fulfilling and :) But before that, hall camp! So exciting! Cherish what you have before it's all gone..
On a side note, I want to go for a holiday with my tutorial mates, and also my vjchoir friends after grad next year. 2 trips, will my pocket afford it without leaving a hole? 1 place is taiwan, 2 place is auzzie, (3 place is Copenhagen provided i can earn that much within a year. lol) Sounds great, haha.
Ok back to reality. It doesnt matter how you like to suan ppl because you haven't grown up. If I had a choice, I wouldn't be so stupid.
